Feeling Less Decrepit and Rotted

I think I'm feeling better from eating more, like I got wings at the grocery store and got to eat out or a drink a few times.

Okay, so.

My room is pretty clean and my bathroom is spectacular.

How will I buckle down and study?  I might do it without college.  Violin and German.

Calvary

I'm thinking of going to a Calvary Baptist church this morning.  I think they have longer services than a Catholic church but no classical music.  There's this one by Disney World, too, but maybe an intimidating drive, especially with the kind of weather we've been having.

Papers

I think I went through most all my papers to throw out, now gotta organize some.

Excited to Clean!

I gotta clean my room so I can concentrate and put things in places.

America Extinct

No one "believes in you" if you're not a European native, especially from a desirable country to them at the time.

Latinos Rule

People don't realize that maybe Latinos like the European part of their heritage so much compared to others being racist and stupid.

Being Mean/Evil

Baby Boomers want to assimilate me with people being bad from Generation Y because Baby Boomers are mean/evil and embarrassed of their mistake.

They also compare me to / involve me with their spouses in derogatory ways.

Hurt

Why is it always about waiting, like waiting for the shape of my nose to get better?

Segregation in America

Americans won't stop quitting being American.  Another culture pops up, and they segregate.

Underground Fame

I'm not that established socially.  I'm more of a mystery.

Almighty

Those who know pop culture know power.

Alarm Clock / Radio / Sound Machine

"I ... am ... lovin' it!"

Message Board - Post by Me

(film|boards)

Does anyone know these hits?

It sounds like the first one was made for my cousin and the 2nd for her mom, my aunt, my dad's younger sister. My cousin is a younger female than me.

It really puts people in a position to feel they have a medium to speak through and something to say that is better than me like I'm no good. I've been underground famous, and I never made a breakthrough and I post online like crazy. My aunt just says she's too busy to blog.

2017



2020

Am I all alone?

How ghey!  I don't need a pacifier.

Excited

Tomorrow, I get my Baroque violin fixed so I can practice/play and audition for a workshop in Germany.

English Warning

Some English people act like we should all be cautious and worry about what they say next, even if they don't admit it or insist it's not so.

You know, I am fine.  The world changed on me.

Normal Versus Weird

I wasn't trying to fight good people, I was trying to fit in, where I already belong.

German-American means safe?

So, only German-Americans ... are the only people in America who feel they are safe to feel good in the future? while people are busy acting like everyone else has a chance?

You Have It Backed Up?

Are people just watching me waiting to see if I feel good about things because they think I shouldn't because of my generation?

Like, I am just here and do things and suddenly people pop up and say, "No!" out of nowhere.